December 2008
was i dead? →
i don’t know why i feel like i wasn’t, but i’m glad i really ABSORB words and lyrics when i listen, not hear them, now. i love being moved, its more pain but its more real than when we play it cool…
just the kindness I've lavished on strangers is... →
i forget almost all the time that i actually like ani difranco. these discoveries are my fave kind of gift, so i’m happy :) finally finished wrapping gifts, ON christmas haha. lets see if tomorrow…
because i'm definitely eating a lot of leftover... →
yo, eggs and orange juice! i love that i lose weight for no reason once i get home, must be the whole ‘eating real food instead of empty calories’ thing. damn college and those quick & easy meals. …
or coconut cream pie →
it’s like those candy corns on Halloween, that you try every year even though you know it makes you gag. some kind of mental block goes up and the next holiday season you say “oh i can’t remember…
do i really care? →
i change mind mind a lot more than i take credit from myself for. it’s nice to have goals, but which are fake and which are real? which are really self-generated and which ones exist because i think…
just a bite..
every one of us has that little bit of cannibal monster inside.
even us vegetarians.
at least we're a success at something.
i’ve never really had a good chance or reason to say this in life so far, but now i do: boys suck. wtf.
a lot of them anyway. most, even.
eh.
these boys aren’t even my problem! theyre just fuckin up my friends! and are supposed to be my friends as well. more WTF.
Link →
I AND I WE’RE TAKING CONTROL OF OUR LIFE. i feel like i’ve never known what it is to want something. i insist on learning this. Now.
earth to signal →
new FOB is not impressing me. LJ is also not impressing me. funny i stop doing things and pick them up again for the sake of picking them up. still trying to learn how to have a reason, i guess?
bakery →
and then i’m content. it’s like i try to have these wild mood swings but i snap back to equilibrium like a rubber band against forgiving skin. i have a forgiving but thick skin. i wonder if…
pushing daisies
“Chuck: I can’t even hug you? What if you need a hug? A hug can turn your day around. Ned: I’m not a fan of the hug. Chuck: Then you haven’t been hugged properly. It’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone puts their arms around you and they give you a squeeze and all your fear and anxiety come shooting out of your mouth in a big wet wad and you can breath again. ...
roll to me →
also never seen so many people i knew passing through rutgers on a friday before.. almost exclusively people i don’t *reallly* know though. funny day, detailing the space between.
Link →
to do: take pics of my threadless tees! who doesnt like free money???! the tiger one, partly hungry skies, this was supposed to be the future, relax and dream of nothing… woo 6 dollars of credit.
wow i haven't listened to The Used in an age →
um. funny how my mind glosses over staying up UNTIL 6 IN THE MORNING like “no big.” definitely, being stressed out enough to write a whole paper in the dead of night until the sun starts rising is…
all we need is a little bit of momentum, break... →
i am being pummelled with love. that is the only way to describe it. i’ve just been doing a really poor job of accepting it, the gift that love is, unconditional or otherwise. funny how letting…
believe in love?
i drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating, that’s what you get when you let your heart win.
