does your brain ever just produce disturbingly violent thoughts out of nowhere
like terrible, horrible, thoughts
for no reason at all
and then you snap out of it and you’re like
i don’t want to kill my mom
what the fuck
they’re called intrusive thoughts and apparently are very common
If the same thought comes back over and over and it won’t stop, or a lot of thoughts constantly, that’s when it’s time to talk to someone about it.
Persistent and disturbing intrusive thoughts or imagery, especially if they are bad enough to interfere with your everyday life, are present in a number of mental illnesses, including OCD. There’s a threshold, of course—intrusive thoughts happen sometimes even In neurotypical folks, so it doesn’t automatically mean you have OCD or any other mental health condition, but if it is interfering in your life, and you can access a mental health care provider, that’s an option you may want to consider.
I have OCD and intrusive thoughts are something I’ve dealt with most of my life; they’re not as bad currently as they were before I was medicated, but they still happen, especially when I’m very stressed or anxious. They can be really graphic and upsetting. Just remember it doesn’t make you a bad person. If anyone ever needs to talk about it, my ask box is open.